:(
first few months all of us took it very easy but now after getting a wake up call, im back@attending college full time!:) midsems starting in 10days and i havent started studying yet! as usual hah!! Im giving SNAP too in december but my prep. isnt upto the mark infact nothing it all..wonder when will i get serious in life!:(
You know, isnt it funny how the other person can be responsible for making or breaking ur day?? its funny! why can't we be so strong in our own skin that no one else's opinions can even touch us?? we depend so much on others for our happiness and our grumpy mood that it makes me SICK!!
anyway i have been happy otherwise and not the way im putting it here but you know SMALL LITTLE things matter!! one time im so so sooooo happy that my smile would make anyone arnd me jealous (and it has!) but in no time I can be all upset and grumpy! I have been too hot temper wise since the past 2 days..and i dont understand why?
alright time to log out and ohhhhh HYATT is coming next week for recruitment!!:D I know it's tough to crack but Im going to give my BEST shot so that i don't dissapoint myself atleast no matter what the result!
Have a good weekend guys!!:)
It all started 2 and a half years back. it really makes you wonder how sometimes things work out for you. sometimes (just sometimes though) you're at the right place at the right time and for the right people.
It was my first week in Bangalore. all homesick and confused yet determined to make it big in the big BAD world outside. It was a phase of making new friends, new college, settling in, checking out places in bangalore on weekends, knowing my roomies better, making phone calls to mom every 2 hours, going in groups to get uniforms from majestic, ragging and u get the picture right? I must say, it was one of the bestest phases of my life. things went wrong a lot of times but everything was just so new that it was bound to happen and so i picked up the pieces, learnt from the experience and moved on quickly to get on the next adventure! :)
I wasn't someone who enjoyed 'drinking' as a social activity and hanging out in pubs and lounges was something that wasnt really something which occupied my weekends you know? but slowly, to not dissapoint ur friends and see that priceless smile on their face u go that extra step sometimes. and trust me, that extra step is responsible for my (extra) happiness in my life today! :)
We were lounging around in Bunker's on MG's on a sunday evening with some of our seniors whom we were meeting for the first time in our lives! For starters, I'm someone who would say hi-hello and for sometime it's just that and nothing beyond that but once I know you, it's a different story ofcourse!! anyway coming back to bunker's, i was having my breezer and side by side was busy mesging my roomie who was sitting right opposite to me. lol. It was all dark with a few twinkling lights here and there and there was LOUD music - I remember "Gasolina" was the track which kept repeating every 20 min. There was this guy who was sitting on the couch - let's call him "P". I had noticed only him out of 10 other guys when we first met outside the pub. We exchanged glances for a second i remember. P was busy watching match along with his umpteenth glass of beer and I couldn't help but notice his cuteness even when he looked completely sloshed out. The seniors were laughing, drinking, singing and chitchatting. "boys talk" mostly. He was one of them too. His lose shirt which was half untucked and ofcourse his super lowwaist jeans did catch my eye and yes i wont deny that :P when he went out because someone called. He came back, and put his hand behind my couch. it was purely unintentional I know but I could feel butterflies in my tummy and that Idiot wasn't even aware that a junior who's sitting besides him is majorly hitting on him! ;) I cannot just CANNOT forget that moment. It was just perfect. Strange connection at a strange place with a stranger. I knew at that instance, that we had a long way to go. somewhere, sometime i felt he would play a big part in my life. I know 5 min is too short a time but you know, it happens sometimes. You "feel" something at that particular moment and it has such a strong effect on you that it's difficult to ignore. I was lost in my thoughts and there he was asking me my name. I told him and asked him his. He joked whether it was my first time having a breezer that I look so groggy. I was like -"whatever.. that isnt funny" lol unwanted attitude n obvious indifference. how childishi i know! ;)
While having dinner with my roomies I declared "I think I have a crush on one of our seniors" in a very playful tone and all of us laughed, made fun and slept away to the glory. The next morning everything was forgotten except the strange connection.
Weeks passed by and I got busier with the routine in bangalore. Friends, College, Hanging out, sleeping, other activities, going home on long weekends.. everything was going perfectly normal. But meanwhile, my liking towards Mr. P was on the rise. I was aware that he was upto something with one of his batchmates (it was a she) and so I had decided not to rush into things at all.
But somewhere deep within me I had hope..
- Mood:
loved
My mind is working over time and making my life pure hell. No, I'm not kidding I mean I have stopped being "an easy going person" there's always something or the other to worry about even when there's nothing to get so fussy about actually.
I cannot sleep beyond 9am even when i call it a night post 3 am. "What next?" question keeps hopping inside my pea brain. I wonder, is this normal? I'm for god's sake 21 and I'm supposed to go with the flow right? then why am i being such a retard and behaving as if time is running out??
You know sometimes i feel taking Hospitality Management as a career option wasn't a smart move at all for me. In the past 3 years, I have understood how the other side of the hotel works. and I just know mine is not the so called "hotel" profile AT ALL. As a guest, the hotel always looks inviting but if you're thinking about working then it's an altogether different story ofcourse! For interviews though, I'm opting for "Front Office" department. But you know what? I really don't want to work in Hotels. No, it's not my calling. It's just not.
I can't imagine such kinda life.
I'm considering a serious switch altogether once i graduate. but the problem here is - college campuses. I'm gonna sit for a select few and i'm already awaiting the result of one of the hotels which i'm hoping would be positive. and im doing this only for the sake of investing 3 years of my life for hospitality management. i dont want to dissapoint my parents in ANY WAY. I'm seriously confused. I have a few options in my mind but im not really sure HOW to go about it. OH well.. this is one of the toughest phases for me as far as "professionalism" etc is concerned. Hope I get the signal from the almighty soon enough!
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:sum song on ipod
I love this time of the year... its soo vibrant, colourful and such a "feel good" time!!!! :)
wish this could last forever.. i mean f o r e v e r..
had a lovely time at home needless to say... have to go back to Bangalore tomorrow though!
makes me sick - the thought itself! :( but got something important coming up so have to go!
will be back in pune in 2weeks though :D moms leaving for US.. excited about coming back home but will miss Mom loads.. 6 months is such a long time!!!!!!!!!! :(
have to start studying - absolutely clueless about some subjects... have LOTS to catch up on!!!
wish i could stay home and get pampered! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(
anyway hope u all having a great time this diwali - the ones who's in India and the ones who're abroad... have a blast!!:D
missing last years Diwali.. sister's prewedding days... WOW! memorable.. :)
anyway take care you guys.
- Mood:
cheerful
dont noe whats gotten into us.. its just too borin to go cos u noe theres hardly anything happenin in coll these days.. gosh 3rd year is the most jobless of all the three years of our course really.. :(
its 4.16pm right now and feels as if its 8 or something at night.. its been raining monstrously since last nite..
its just too @&T^@#&^&!!
anyway right now having a nice cuppa coffee nd njoyin the sprinklin water on my face blowing frm the windows...:)
crazy wind outside.. dont noe whether to appreciate it or curse..
anyway my roomies sis wants to use the lappy so me signing off..
gonna study for GRE now for sometime..
take care dear Ljay..
- Mood:
blah
but unfortunately my 2 roomies had sprained ankles by the time we got back home! now since we all are away from our parents -all the responsibility fell on me!:) I did all i c'd like applying the ice pack etc. since it was too late we cudn't go visit a doctor. anyway i will cut short the details and get straight to the main point. so yes, when i took them to a doctor the next day, one of my roomies thankfully had just a sprained ankle and nothing more to it. but R, my other roomie had her ligament badly ruptured!!! now she's under plaster for 6 weeks to come! Now i'm all busy pampering both of them!:) lol.. sometimes i feel like im their mom or something cos really when it comes to all this i become all homebody and forget that im also their same age!;)
today is also an off and i have woken up way before i had planned to!! this always happens with me! i can't sleep for longer hours wen i have my day off and i happen to oversleep when i have a class at 9 am! subconscious mind plays a lot of games u see!;) Having a nice hot cuppa coffee now and thinking of how to spend the day other than taking R to see the doctor!!
and ohhhh btw i got spects!! gawd do i look like a complete nerd!!:( but i have got no choice.. my eye sight has gone so weak that my eyes hurt immediately after i remove my spects while reading, watching tv etc ageing perhaps????:P
On other news, i am mostly going to U.S again in december!:) it will be fanalised in 2 weeks cos i need to look up my mid terms schedule with college before that! rest all good.. life has its own way of throwing shit but u gotta flush right!!! so me doing a good job!;)
- Mood:
cheerful
makes me sort out my issues in a simpler way. so i'm gonna keep it at.. for my own sake!
Right now in college cos got all the morning lectures off. forgot to get my chef-uniform for the afternoon session so i have to go back home again, get dressed up and come to college to attend my bakery practicals!! oh well so much for getting "descipline" back in life. if i had it my way, i would have happily bunked my bakery class!;)
Yesterday was one tragic day!! cannot ever forget such an experience. Now im laughing it off but yesterday at this time i was completely broken down and cudnt control my anger, fear or whatever it was! But the only +ve aspect - i got my lesson -the hard way! I have put it behind me and moving ahead with immense.. i repeat *immense* hope.
I'm going to be very hard on me henceforth. have taken things casually a lot in my life but iv decided to work on it. hope i dont let myself down!
long weekend again starts tomorrow. I'm actually bored of having so many holidays!! Was planning on going home again but it did not work out. sooo... just thinking how to utilize the yet another long weekend that im lucky(?!!) to have starting tomorrow till monday! i hope... i just hope i dont waste it by getting up late, eating eggs and bread and then sleeping off again!!;) i hope i atleast do one or two things i wish to get done!
thats all for now. lunch time so bye bye dear LJay. it's a pleasure having you on board with me yet again after all these years!!:)
- Mood:
cheerful - Music:mere khabon main rehti hain
Whether to work after graduation or opt for further studies right after graduation???
Im interested... let me repeat I'm obssessively interested in "marketing communications" or something along those lines.. even if i join hotels right now, I wouldnt even consider working for any four major depts. of the hotel.. it's always going to be either the "Sales & Marketing" dept. or Communications! If I Crack a decent campus then I'll definately consider working for a year or so and then go for say an MBA. a good mix of both(academics+work exp.) is always going to be beneficial for an MBA right?
Its extremely tough to stay focused when u can have choices!! so much for "keeping options open"! How do you set your priorities straight without fearing anything??
But again yes, If i had it my way then I seriously wouldnt mind getting married right after graduation!!;) but well well the social responsibilities sadly wudnt allow me!:P So any suggestions?
- Mood:
groggy
3rd year that is the final year of college is extremely boring as in there's not much happening as far as academia is concerned! ever since i came back to bangalore from my blissful summer trip to U.S... there's something or the other happening in college but since past one week life has seen the MOST unproductive days of my life!:( need to buckle up now -high time!
We have campuses this year. as in campus interviews. they usually recruit us for an MT(management trainee) but considering the Global slowdown this past one year the campus scene looks a bit COLD for our batch! tomorrow is The Lalit Ashok.. still considering whether to sit or not! let's see.. cos i really want to crack Hyatt but no hard and fast rules though :) any good MT in 'these not so encouraging' times would be welcomed with OPEN hands!!!;D really have to start preparing for campus too -have been too lazy!!
gymming sh'd be happening too but i was down with terrible cold and cough for over 1 and a half weeks.. so the break spoiled everything!!!:( my routine is basically all screwed since first week of sept. there are tons of other things to be taken care of -but where's the energy??? :(
planning to give SNAP too in december... got many ambitious plans but no plans whatsoever to start preparing for the same!!:P it's extremely annoying but i hope i gear up soon enough and start doing things the way they sh'd be done!
and looks like everyone has given up blogging for good :) twitter has taken the web by storm!!!! im there too -but somehow not very successful @ updating it! cos its a real task to micro blog from my mobile! alright me off for now. will be hopefully be back with a big wide smile on my face next time i blog!! Have a good week ahead ~ ~
- Location:Bangalore.
- Mood:
amused - Music:Aaj Din Chadeya
Well.. im hoping, really hoping that it would compliment with the blazer and skirt and well... my extra-round face!!!
I have everything new this time.. in a particular order.. right from my new haircut, to sunglasses, to new earrings/studs, to lipglosses, to NEW YORK pendant sorta in my neck, new tops, new perfumes, new darkpink wallet, new bangles, to leggings/jeans, new dark purple huge handbag, to new shoes... everythings BRAND NEW!!;) and hundreds of other cosmetics and shampoos!
Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! and now hopefully a slightly slimmer me in a couple of months!
lets seeeeee :P
but again.. somethings never gonna change and so all in all ..its ALL GOOD!
- Mood:
crazy
even when he doesn't bring me flowers unless and until i pay for it
even when he doesnt really surprise me except my bdays
even when he gets insecure to the extent of cutting me off my friends at times
even when he yells at me at the top of his voice for calling him over and over again when i noe he's busy with something
even when he smokes insanely and doesnt listen to me
even when he sleeps early when i expect we would have a looooooong late night phone call
even when he hates the idea of going to a nearby lake and sitting there in the middle of those typical couples
even when he's not even slightly romantic unless u remind him to be one
even when he ignores me while watching sports completely and doesnt reply to my texts
even when he plays cricket all day and forgets to call me
even when he makes me feel like complete shit at times
even when he calls me in the morning just because hes scared of me and not becoz he wants to!
even when he always and always and always forgets our anniv. and then pretends that he wanted to give me a surprise!
even when he calls me MOTI again and again
even when he never forgets to mention that m the most fake and dramatic person hes ever met during fights
even when he doubts me like a maniac coz of the most stupidiest of incidences
even when he's really not a big fan of dogs
even when he shamelessely stares at other hot chicks walking by and doesnt stop for minutes
even when he doesnt really get along well with some of my friends
even when he makes me cry
.....despite all that...
I feel he's the PERFECT guy for me.. and that we're meant to be together.
does this happen to you too?
It's been 1.5 years now and we're still going strong! haha who would have thought.. :)
Even after putting me through so much torture, he manages to wrap me in his warmth so easily.. its not even funny!
He's made an exception for me in many of the cases mentioned above though and i like that difference :)
- Mood:
loved
happy but missing the good times
times spent with family even if its for a lil over 2 days, u get completely sucked into the family dramas and happenings, get wrapped under immense warmth and never feel like coming out and again face the world on ur own feet! its been 1 and a half months now i have been with my family and the very thought of going back to Bangalore well...isnt too encouranging!!!
life in bangalore is pretty good but again home is home!! 1 year of college left in bangalore... i desperately have to look out and start figuring out options so that i can be with my family atleats for a year or so after i graduate! and that too, before i plan something solid for myself like an MBA or something after 2 years! havent given it a thought yet as in the master's part... but let's see!
everything looks too uncertain and blurred right now. and everything else also largely depends on well... i guess its too soon to talk about it right now!!! so i will save it for later!:D
on an upside down, id be meeting P after so so soooooo long!!! loads to tell him... GOD cant wait!! distance really does work wonders -sometimes! its not always bad!!!:) it improves soooo many things! right now i feel exactly the way i felt in march last year! something i cant explain! and its funny how lil i have written about P here on LJ... I have always thought its something really precious and special to write about here! lets see i might just be a lil soft on myself!
sleep time.. my biological clock is screwed. need to get back on track before i fly out to Bangalore!
so good night folks!
- Mood:
happy
so this was my first time@ strawberry picking in the farms of northern California.. and oh my god.. was it heavenly!:)
The strawberries were HUGE and BRIGHT red and FRESH! I picked soooooo many and ate like in dozens while picking them up!
I had soooo many of em..i nearly skipped my lunch!:D the mountains, the bright sun, strong winds, people i adore, strawberries rolled in mud yet fresh... just perfect!
- Mood:
hungry
being sooooo far away, u naturally get away frm most complicated matters of ur life left behind and it just feels soooo right being away!
ofcourse m happy for more than one reason to go back....but here life was just perfect! WHAT a perfect summer BREAK i have had!!!!:)
I feel extremely refreshed and im all set to take on! living a PEACEFUL life with hardly any idiotic issues surrounding me was surely a HUGE refreshing break i have had!
I luv it here....definately wanna come back but to some major city and SO NOT suburbs!
gonna miss sis...too much i think
sigh.....lifes just not a fair deal i tel u....:(
- Mood:
calm
i think a real short hair cut would look great on a blazer. it somehow gives u the carefree and confident look! but im just not sure how would it look on a superround face like me!! but again a bun doesnt compliment my personality and face at all in any way!
a short hair cut wit layers in front and shorter at the back with a bouncy feel would be just perfect!
i really want it....lets see i might just give it a shot!
bored of my hairdo now....want to experiment something classy and smart!
- Mood:
curious
on the other hand, our trip -american trip has been just like an untouched(?) dream....really its evident frm our photos...not a single photo where im in a bad mood, really! things have been pretty good and im going to save these memories for much much later :)
update about an hour later -
got busy with cooking -and am still cooking!:)
so will write more later...
- Mood:
busy
time flew by so fast.. didnt realize it till the time we hugged goodbyes to shweta and family...sigh
her 2 month old baby is actually the first baby of his age that i handled with ease and comfort. otherwise till date even though i have connected with a lot of babies before i never did try to even hold em in my arms! i wasnt confident about my ability to handle such teeny weeny angels really! jeez. what a charming baby boy he is :) yes, already!! lol shreeya like always is a sweetheart. i have this habit of acting as if im their age and so naturally it becomes very easy for me to play with them -even riding their stupid scooters in frnt of older people isnt odd for me...!!
here in NJ when i had gone to visit another cousin of mine -her kid actually asked me "which grade are u in?" lol.. for a moment it *did* feel good but for gods sake m like 21 now so yeah i didnt noe how to react.. i told him "im in college and passed out of school a couple of years bck" after that he asked me twice.. and said he liked me.. ah i felt soooo good i tel u! with shreeyu.. i reconnected quite instantly and it was great :) i have a thing for babies and kids.. and i can proudly confess i just love em. kids are so smart these days though! u have to think twice before speaking anything at all in front of em. but kids seem to have a thing for me toooo i believe so its all good!;)
hmmm dont noe why did i get up writing that big saga on kids.. went with the flow i guess:D
rest all good.. everythings too good to be true sometimes! 17 miles drive was mind boggling. heaps fun but sooooo windy!!:D sfo was good too but i like NYC better -any given day! one of the afternoons was spent in one of the charming neighborhoods of sfo -sausalito... i just love that place -*romantic* is THE word to desribe it in the BEST possible way! had a nice cozy lunch by the bay on those typical english wooden benches with strong winds brushing past us.. was fabulous! west coast and east coast have almost nothing in common me thinks!
we had a VERY nice and memorable experience with american airports on our way to SFO. its funny how u gotta learn some things the hard way! more on that later.. a seperate post is a MUST my dear LJ for that.. will need it throughout my life actually!
in 5 days will be back in India.. feels good yeah(ofcourse) but weird too. need to figure that one out.
good night world!
- Mood:
sleepy
luv americas funniest home videos.. gonna miss watching it aftr 8pm wen i go bck to Indiaaaa! its like a routine now.
teh view frm the empire state building 86th floor was really good:) luved it!
then walked to times square -at night it really is a different ballgame altogether. :)
i love the sights and smells of New York City. it welcomes u with open hands and u dont even realize when u get drawn into the magic of the city. wanna write more but kinda high right now..hmmm
but theres this emptiness in me -next time i visit NYC, i really want P by my side. wld luv to explore the mighty and stylish city with him -walkey walkey :D.
now lets see how sfo treats me -hope i dont get too greedy by all the wonderful things happening to me and with those around me!
over and out for now ljay.
- Mood:
ditzy
Im so happy with whatever i have bought! the best buys, totally!:)
u can see the happiness here : http://www.flickr.com/photos/entrance_m
and shopped tons of goodies for my friends from bath and body works!:D awesum stuff @cheap prices!!
thank GOD for inventing "SALE"!!
had a very yummy mongolian lunch today.. and made pasta for dinner tonight -turned out delicious as always ;)
else a couple of social activities happening over the weekend so just gonna be tied up with that!
so yeah things have been good -Im living it up my dear LJ!:)
- Mood:
cheerful
